I'm still alive...

I'm still here. Barely. My head has been a very...scattered place lately. I don't have much to say, yet. I know I will, though. Eventually.

The worst part is, I know this was the whole point of all of this. To hurt me and to throw me into a spiral. Luckily, I have my son, who is amazing. He is so funny and happy and warm spirited. He keeps me laughing, he's the only reason I still know how to love, and he keeps me optimistic about the future. Without hope, what do you have?

So here is my music for today (and yesterday and the week before that). This song has always spoken to me when I'm down. I do feel like it's always raining in my head. It's just that sometimes, the sun is shining while it's raining, and that's when you get the best rainbows (mental note to reference in the next actual post!)