Same shit, different day.

I was going to post last night. In fact, I had a whole topic planned out to post about. But then, things took a turn yesterday.

I don't have a whole lot to say about it right now. Maybe I never will. The problem is, I have a lot I WANT to say about it, but it's probably in everyone's best interest that I bite my tongue. Nothing good can or will come from me saying exactly what I want to or exactly how I feel. So I will be "good".

But let me say this: I am angry. I am humiliated. I am hurt. And most of all, I am surprised. Which, in and of itself, shouldn't surprise me, but it does. Just when you think you know everything about someone, or about a situation, something comes along to prove you shouldn't be so smug.

Maybe that's why all this happened. Maybe that's why this happened now. Maybe I've been too smug about my life, my happiness, moving on. Maybe I have been too vocal about how good things are/have been. Maybe it happened because it was supposed to. Who knows.

I don't really know much of anything right now. The only thing I know is that I will keep trying to move forward and move past all of this. Fortunately, the people responsible aren't a part of my life anymore, so based on that fact alone, I win.

So I guess I will leave you with a couple of songs. Because even if I'm speechless and can't find the words to express the range of emotions I have been going through the last 24 hours or so, it seems like I can always find a song that does a pretty good job.